"Softness is Great, and Strength is Worthless” (Andrey Tarkovsky). This poetic documentary is a great opportunity to tell my story because, no matter what we make films about, every story we tell is a story about ourselves. This film, like my artwork on canvas, reflects my personal vision, feelings, and thoughts, which I aimed to share with the audience. While making it, I constantly revisited my feelings, perceptions of reality, and childhood memories; I examined them, and touched the pain of trauma and the joy of healing.
As an artist, I love creating art, like making movies, telling stories as if I'm making a film, even if it’s just a drawing. That’s why I love mixed media art for the film. Colours in the film were used expressively. I used them to convey my feelings positively or negatively. The brightness and dynamics of colours reflect the levels of negative or positive sentiments. Colours can cause discomfort or evoke a sense of peace.
I was excited by the possibility of using sounds to deepen emotions, aligning them with timing and rhythm, giving symbolic meaning, and creating a film that resembles a prayer or meditation. While working on this project, I learned a lot about editing. I discovered ways to use editing software as tools, like pencils or brushes, in visual art; some parts of the film resemble watercolour with soft, transparent techniques, others resemble gouache, and others resemble ink. Layering shots within scenes created an impressionistic effect. The sound added the right tone and rhythm: fast scenes contrasted with slow ones, loud sounds with soft and quiet moments; sometimes the film turns to silence, allowing the audience to feel the emotional tone of trevoga, the moment between anxiety and panic.
